Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts

Monday, April 30, 2012

Fear is an Empty Page

I'm on the verge of starting a new novel (writing not reading).  Well, I'm actually a bit past that.  I had intended on starting a couple of weeks ago, but something got in my way . . . FEAR.

I'm not the kind of writer that uses outlines.  I lean a bit more toward free writing.  I know this causes all the outliners to gasp and shake their heads.  What about the plot holes?  The dead ends?  The run on writing?  Truth is, that's not what I'm afraid of.  Free writing comes natural to me and some of my best ideas come straight out of the blue.

What is it that scares me, then?  A blank page does.

Once I get words down on paper (more like computer screen) then my muse usually kicks in and the story unfolds on its own.  Now, that's not to say I don't hit snags that have to be fixed in the rewrites, but most often the Fear stays away.

But it's the moments just before starting, the time when you sit down to a blank page and search for the perfect opening line, that gets me.  That's when I start second guessing my muse.  Are you sure I shouldn't write this thing in first person?  Should this character live or die?  Is a mutant dragon/unicorn really necessary to my YA Police/Doctor drama with sparkly swamp creatures that teach children to do taxes?

The problem is, this new novel has a few elements that I've never tried before.  It's dystopian, it's the first in a series, and the horror aspect of the story has the capacity, if not done right, to come of as hackneyed and b-rated.

So, here I sit, procrastinating, second guessing, staring at a blank page.

Saturday, February 04, 2012

Simply Thankful Saturday

I've been lacking on subjects for blog posts of late.  I'm trying my best not to constantly blog about my own writing, as that is narcissistic and boring.  But, I don't really have all that much else to talk about.  I'm not an expert in the technical side of writing.  I'm not at a place where I would call myself a successful indie writer, so I feel a bit uncomfortable about giving out writing advice.  And I don't live a very exciting life.  I go to work, come home, play with my kids and in between I write as much as I can.

I wish I had more to offer you.  Really, I do.

So, for lack of a better subject, I'm going to steal a post idea from my wife's new blog.

It's time for Simply Thankful Saturday.  Here is a random list of things I'm thankful for.

1. My wife.  Times have been tough, financially speaking, the last couple of years.  But through the struggle we've been given a glimpse of the truly important things in life.  She's a great support for my writing, even though right now it's more of an expensive hobby than a lucrative job.

2. My kids.  They are a crazy couple of gremlins.  They wreck up the house.  They leave no clean space unsoiled.  I haven't had a good days rest since they came along.  But when they smile and hug my neck, it's worth every minute.

3. My Kindle.  I love my paper books, don't get me wrong, but e-readers have made reading so much more convenient.  I can carry my library with me.  No more bulky hardbacks.  Plus, the technology has given many great writers a chance to get their work out to the world.

4. The warm weather.  Indiana has been having a warm winter this year.  Many are upset about this.  They want the cold.  They want the snow.  Not me.  I wouldn't mind snow if I could just hunker down for the winter and hibernate, but alas, I must go to work.  Part of my job requires that I do snow removal.  No snow makes me a happy worker.

5. My writing friends.  I have made a lot of new writing comrades over the past couple of years, and each has taught me something new.  They have been there to help me promote my work, or be a beta reader, or even design a cover for me in a pinch.  Their blogs are a treasure trove of information.  My hope is that I can be the same for them.

It's easy to get bogged down in the dismal side of writing.  Don't forget what Yoda said. "Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering."  Remembering what you're thankful for is a great way to fight the fear.